Freskos

But i’m still gonna.

Last weird typed blog for a while but here it goes.

Can we talk about how I def prayed last month for many many things and DEF got everything I wished for, just not in the way I wanted them? I prayed that the people that are supposed to be in my life, that they are there, and the people that arent supposed to be there make their way out……….. pretty self explanitory. It just sucks because it was the people that were supposed to be “forever” that were the ones that werent supposed to be there.

I prayed that a friend find happyness and be set on a better lifestyle path. Completo.

I asked for direction of the young adults in my life. Completo, i’m now planning a once a month young adult gathering with food and entertainment at the Queen Bees.

I prayed that music find its place in my life. Done. Passion and not a money maker. Cooking makes me money, music brings me pure happiness.

So i’ll go a step further than saying prayer works. Prayer works in the way its SUPPOSED to work. Not in the way you necessarily want it to work. The key is opening your eyes to the answers being given to you. Don’t just look for what you want, look for what you asked. If I just waited for all the lame people in my life to disappear, I would think that my prayers went unheard. It wasnt until the closest people in my life were taken from me that I really started to love myself as much as I should. I was becoming way to emtionally selfless and I see that now is not the time.

So for anyone having a somewhat crappy time in life right now, just pray on it and keep your eyes and ears open =) Hit me up if it doesn’t work out for you haha. Highly doubt that won’t happen though!

- Rice Pilaf

- Sundried Tomato, Basil, Mozerrella, Gruyere and Parmesan Rissoto

- Caramelized Onion Polenta Casserole

- Duchess Potatoes

- Gratin Potatoes

- Rosemary Roasted Potatoes

Not gonna lie, kinda excited to make stuffed Fillet Mignon wrapped in bacon with a splash of Gorgonzola Burre Blanc sauce on Monday =)

This contact high will not help me to finish my homework =””””’(

This is the extent of my 420 celebration. Although not intentional, it made for a fun night! I love my friends and their crazy antics! And I love watching drunk non dancers sashaying across an apartment! And I love getting it on video! And I love demolishing awkward silences with witty comments! Mraw mraw mraw mraw!

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Ha, the sims 2, how obsolete.

I don’t know if there’s something wrong, but as much as I complain about it, life seems to be more drama free, less stressful, and more enjoyable as a whole when I’m riding solo. I’m finally learning focus, and learning so much about the things I love. Its been hard adjusting to live without having that person to share every detail with, but I think in the long run its a little more healthy for me. I’ll have to toughen up and rough it through the hard times and lonely days, but in the end, i’ll come out on top ; )

I’m not going back to the days where I didn’t just throw my trust around. Obviously i’m doing something wrong when I have the same trust issue with multiple people. I’ve been the only constant in all situations so its time to fix it and move on.

That is why I’ve decided to focus on moving out of San Diego and enjoy a life of travel by December of this year. Consider this a formal announcement =)

I’ve been thinking far too much lately about absolutely nothing. Just an awful mix of absurdities and outlandishisms (its a word. Just submitted it to the dictionary for approval). In a nut shell, there are only 2 things on my mind: how much of a musician am I really, and am I sure I want to move forward with and without certain people. The first question is huge because its a direct attack on who I am. I guess you can say i’m having a civil war. The second question is just me not wanting to make mistakes and end up alone. There are people in my life that I know shouldnt be, and there are some people that arent in my life that I know should be. I rub shoulders with the most amazing people on a daily basis, why don’t I stop and ask them to get a cup of coffee sometime? Or to shed over some cool beats? And then I have people who just don’t care about anything but being young and stupid.

I think all of this sums up to: I need a social vacation. Maybe I’ll take my externship outside of San Diego this fall to get some fresh air.

I think I’m way too strict when it comes to who I let in and out. Is it really that wrong of me to not want to give out second chances????????

Amber will be offline for a week to reboot her internal awesomeness system. For the time being. Her tumblr will be updated from time to time with small blurbs from her subconscious. For example, Amber will soon realize that shes gotten herself involved into a great carreer that does not leave her with much time to update social networking sites as often as she wants to.

Also, she loves french onion soup now.

And she can’t wait to start looking into jobs in Europe for the year 2012.

Ciao for now!

I would write more but yet another long day. I’ve been cooking all day and can use a good nights sleep before tomorrows kitchen sessions.Things made in class: Veal stock, Chicken stock, Fish stock, Fish Fumet, Shrimp Stock, and Lobster stock. Intresting things: My friend cut off a fourth of his finger and had to go to the hospital to get it surgicaly glued back on.